First, I would like to thank all of you for reading the Biblical pieces I post for our awesome Father and His Christ, our Lord and Saviour. Second, please accept my apology for not keeping up with your postings.
Alas, I have spent most of my time in the last month and a half preparing to move, in accordance with the agreement I previously made with the property trustee. I am all packed to the point of simply load and unload; so, now it’s just a waiting game until Mason County Housing approves my application for a unit waiting for me in Shelton; about an hour from where I currently live and an hour closer to my daughter in Portland OR. She’d rather I be closer still.
I am hoping the move will take place before the end of this month (April), inasmuch as my neurosurgeon has scheduled an angiogram for the 25th of May. Hopefully, they will be able to determine why I have been experiencing daily migraines and a lot of vomiting. YUCK! My primary doctor also will be scheduling an MRI of my brain, because it will show her what the angiogram will not show. Doctors are curious creatures, aren’t they? LOL!
Anyway, I likely will be disassembling my desk and computer system within the next week or so and may not get back up and running for about two weeks. So, please know that all of you are in my prayers and I ask that you keep me in your prayers.
GOD IS GOOD!
Much love, hugs and prayers, BonnieQ
Eyes On the Clouds
©copyright 2003 Bonita M Quesinberry, R.C.,
published in MSMusings Magazine,
“Looking Forward” Aug 2003 edition
An eternal optimist: consistently looking forward while bombarded by our world’s filth and wickedness, illnesses and diseases, false accusations and persecutions, even blasphemous teachings. There is but one way to continue onward in the midst of humanity’s corruption: God Almighty. Only He has power to pull our defiled gaze upward to the clouds, despite it all.
An MS/Lupus thorn may pierce the side, yet cannot defeat a positive spirit. It hurts, but why despair over a little suffering? Is it as great as Christ endured on our behalf? Definitely not. Besides, smiles and laughter create much nicer lines, in spite of Lupus skin aging prematurely while MS ligaments and tendons suddenly and painfully atrophy, temporarily twisting bones in unnatural ways. So what if there are times when walking is almost impossible, if not outright unachievable; or, hands cannot open a jar or pick up a penny? It is just the outward garment, not the inward person. The mind’s spirit-of-the-heart remains sharp and focused; so, don’t speak as though it is a failing. Instead, smile sunshine on both sunny days and cloudy, stormy ones. It eases everyone’s pain.
Looking forward always has been a way of life for this writer, clearly never understanding pessimists. How do they think? Are they blind as well? For it is a certainty they neither see God’s beauty around them nor sense His abiding love. Looking forward is far more pleasant, even rewarding. Can one thing be changed about yesterday or preset into the future? Nothing. Yesterday and tomorrow are just that—nothing: one is past and the other yet to arrive. One is to grow from, the other to grow into. Thus, power is in today; yet, we all look forward to better than today. Why not make today the best, a perfect day created by Adonai for all to enjoy? After all, tomorrow might never come.
This optimist does look forward to people discovering the books Elohim inexplicably directed her to pen. More importantly, she eagerly awaits Christ’s return, her sometimes triple-vision brown eyes on the clouds: as He instructed for these end days. Isn’t that neat? Sometimes she gets to see three beautiful moons and more than one North Star! Now is so temporary, not worth fussing and moaning and groaning and complaining about. Seek the permanent; that place where there is no sickness, no pain, no hunger, and none homeless or naked: an Eden free of MS, Lupus and all those other maladies of a sick and dying world.
Gazing ahead, Apostle John said, “Nevertheless, come Lord Jesus!” And so, I look forward to His arrival bearing wondrous rewards: the greatest gift being in our Father’s presence, set free of this restrictive flesh forever. LOOK FORWARD!
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©copyright 2005 Bonita M Quesinberry, R.C.
MS Musings, theme, Jan. 2006 issue
One might wonder why some friends seem to stick around through thick and thin, yet others come and go; never to be seen or heard from again or, perhaps, only on rare occasions. It might appear to happen more so during some adversity self is going through at the time: illness, disease, divorce, or a lost job.
Such behaviour tells us something about the friend who walks away, but it also tells us something about self and should cause us to self-analyze; making sure we have not indulged in pity parties and/or overdosed on pity pills. Being ill is no excuse for being pessimistic, whiney, complaining, crying out with “Oh, woe is me,” abusive to those lending aid, or being negative in any way. Such behaviours definitely drive people away.
In truth, our friends mirror who we are on the inside and what kind of friend we are to others. Thus, we cannot attract true friends unless, first, we give bona fide friendship. In short, this relates to the old adage that we cannot give what we first do not have within; as well as the ancient proverb, “Treat others as you would want them to treat you.”
What is a true friend? Well, they love God first and foremost therefore love self. In loving self, they naturally love others without expectation: simply giving of self in myriad ways and on the scene when needed— without complaint. They tend to suffer in silence, making light of their own ailments yet knowing when to apply the brakes for rest.
Optimistic people prefer laughter to tears. This kind of friend also is very honest and always will say what we need to hear as opposed to what we think we want to hear. At the same time, such buddies offer sane solutions to problems, lift us up when we are down, encourage us when discouraged, cry with us when we grieve or hurt, laugh with us when we are joyous, and rapidly jump to care for us when ill: truly sharing every aspect of our lives in accordance with Christ’s instructions to His church, His people as it were.
There is no getting around the fact we draw to us people of the same ilk: if we are negative, the majority entering our circle will be negative; if positive, we attract predominantly positive people. Negative is to be absent from God; whereas positive people walk with God and in His loving ways. After all, God is pure love and optimism; although, He does hate with a perfect, this is to say, a justified hate for all that is evil.
This is not to say negative people never will enter a positive person’s circle; for they will, from time to time, with a desire to have and/or be like the positive or to see if they can gain control over positive. If negative is not willing to learn from and adopt positive’s behaviour, negative will move on while blaming positive for some imagined insult.
On the other hand, if positive steps into negative’s circle and does all the things an optimistic friend does yet pessimism persists in his or her negativity, then positive ultimately will move on rather than be pulled down into negative’s dark abyss: exactly as God instructs His sheep to do.
A true friend does not turn away from a friend for reasons over which one has no control, such as injuries or illness or diseases like Multiple Sclerosis and cancer or divorce or losing a job or even moving far from one another. They turn away from only that which is destructive, but not before offering help and solutions as well as forgiveness.
This writer has been blessed with friends ranging from 2 years to 20 years to as long as 52 years, albeit for the last 20 years she has lived 2300 miles from the longest of them; yet, each of these precious friends have been there for her during various hours of adversity over all these years; in the throes of divorce, death of children and other family members, illnesses, surgeries, diseases of MS, Lupus and, more recently, some flew 2300 miles to care for her following brain aneurysm surgery; despite the fact her daughter was there to help her mother.
By the grace and mercy of God, I am so blessed when I look into the mirror of my lifelong and even new friends, for I comprehend that they reflect the friend I am to them. Most important, however, is that they also reflect my walk with God and His Christ. I have incredibly loving friends who intensely love our Father and His Christ first!
What do you see when you gaze into your friendship mirror? Is the reflection full of darkness and pain or filled with laughter and love and Light?
The reality of this particular mirror is that each individual has the power to alter what it reflects by changing only one thing: SELF. This is just one of many choices we make every day while attending earth’s university known as Life; this particular course, amidst its vast curriculum, is Self-improvement. There are no magic drugs or drinks or people. Oh, mankind does tout a few things as magic cures, but sooner or later each kills due to accumulating side effects. God’s way is life eternal with no down sides.
One hard fact: we cannot change anyone except self; the winning combination being only God, by looking into His mirror first— that is, His Written Word reflecting who and what we truly are within— plus intense work on self’s part coupled with solid determination: refusing to waver, refusing to give in to weaknesses. We all have them, for pity sake!
If we had no weaknesses, Satan would have nothing to attack and Jesus would have not one single reason to grow stronger on our behalf while causing Lucifer to grow weaker against us. If Beelzebub grows stronger against our weaknesses, it is only because we gave him the control over us instead of holding on tightly to our dominion over him! Choice. It’s all about making wise choices. “Be ye not deceived.”
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